Do I cross over to the other side? That’s the question that’s been bugging me for years.

May be I should just accept it? Stay at home full time like women did in the olden days.

Fill my days up with groceries and dinners and washing.

May be it won’t be that bad after all? No more dressing up like a stuffed sausage. No more stressing out.

More time to go wandering , more time to try new stuff.

Why do I not sound that convincing ?