Had a look at the roster last night to find my name still on past my contract ending date. 

Is it an oversight? As my contract ends on the 3rd of February . They’ve scheduled me for work on the 4th which is a Saturday.

Anyhow hubby was saying with all the pharmacists out of work and I’m  getting more work than I want I should be thankful.

The thing is I don’t want more work . I just want work to slot in with my lifestyle. 

At this age in life I do not want to bend my life to suit work. 

The kids are older now. We are not getting any younger. People dropping off all around us . 

It makes you think is it all worth it? How much money is enough for the stress it causes? You can’t take it when you go? 

If you can make do then make do? I want to live simpler not more complicated .

Plus my legs can’t handle it . It keeps on playing up. I suspect it is either my varicose veins or my muscle. It’s tight some days from probably that muscle tear last June. 

I’m hoping to get my veins fixed this coming Autumn or Winter. I’ve researched on it. It’s the standing on hard floors all day that does them in.

The thing is I’ve still got another near 20 years before retirement . Is it too early to retire? I know if I leave I’ll never come back. It gets harder and harder to go back each time. 

I’ve taken a year off last time 2012-2013 before I headed back. It was boredom that got to me. 

That’s what I’m worried about. This cycle of having too much to do then stressing out then dropping everything and the eventual boredom. 

If I leave this time can I break this vicious cycle? Have a balance life? Find joy in the mundane stuff? 

Hubby is hoping to study this year which means our family life is heading down the hectic route. 

The only other alternative is for me to just locum. Accepting shifts only when it suits. Something to think about. 

It is only the 12/1/17 today . Got another 3 weeks to think about it.