I bawled my eyes out last night listening to love songs. I’m a wreck today.
I guess I missed not having someone around. Someone to talk to. Someone to hold.
All my emotions came tumbling out yesterday.
Mr Boardie was like are you okie? You’re due for a good cry anyway.
I have lots of FWBs. The reason being is so that I don’t fall for any of them. It’s my safe guard. It’s not that I’m not emotionally available. My walls are up.
And yet I’ve let him in. Why the hell? I was just complacent. There was no way in the world I was going to fall for someone like him.
He’s not what I wanted. He wrote me this last night.
“Look Shiny
You are the girl I was supposed to meet at the end of this short journey. If you want to cut then cut.
I will still be chasing you when I’m done and ready for a committed relationship.
Let’s have a break for a few weeks and see how it makes us feel. But I want to give you your birthday present”
Don’t think he’s done. Don’t think he’d ever be ready for a committed relationship. The other night I felt so embarrassed. I don’t want to have to ever worry where he’s been or who he’s been with. He’s stirring up all of my insecurities.
Hug. It’s not fair to want what we should wait for. Sending hugs.
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I know. Oh well one day Mr Right will come along.
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As long as you are right. Cuz no matter how many are adorable, you need to be right first. (Preaching to the choir here….)
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😂 I know..my list is getting longer 😂
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I can understand that.
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