Life 2

5/10/2024

I have been too busy living life to blog. It’s been near 6 months since my last blog. Found a few drafts that I’ve published but they are very old 😂

It’s crazy! Lately I’ve come to a realisation that I might be single for life. And for once I’m not fussed. I’ve deleted all of my dating apps and have ceased to look.

It’s taken me 5 years to do that. To not look as there’s no need to.

All it took was me fulfilling my needs.

Sexwise I’ve got two FWBs that comes weekly. Mr Fatty plays ice hockey and cycles. He’s got a body of one of those in the fireman calendar 😂

The other, Mr Leaky goes to the gym so he’s pretty toned. We do stuff together like go out to dinner, coffees and trips away.

Their nicknames are their juniors’ 😂

I recently joined a social walking group. They do walks in regional Victoria. They also run overnight camps.

Which meant I don’t need to boyfriend to go camping with 😂 My new car is big enough to turn into a camper.

I still attend dance classes for exercise. I’ve just came back from a trip to Bali with them. Lots of dancing and night clubbing.

Why? I was forever worried about Bali belly. Can’t walk anywhere. Rolled my ankle on the second day from uneven pavements.

The pollution is quite bad. Scooters everywhere. People smoking in night clubs and restaurants. Can’t walk in peace with tooters hassling you for massages and trips on scooters. Not only that stray dogs everywhere.

One night we decided to walk to our dance social following Google. It took us down an alley way and in the end we had to back track because of a dog.

Since there’s no public transport you’re pretty much relying on the apps for transport around. Ie Grab or Gojek. And the only thing that’s fast are scooters. As they can go down alley ways.

I refused to as saw so many near misses. Bali might be heaven on earth for some but not for me.

Work is as busy as ever. I took last week off sick with a chest infection.

Financial side of things I’m bombarded with bills. This year has been a big hit to my bank account.

I bought a new car, my trip away, renovations to the apartment, my root canal , 5K later, endless tax bills since no more Covid tax help. Still got a crown for my tooth to pay for. That’s another 1K. Another 7K of tax due next month and another 6K due the month after.

The last few weeks I’ve been contemplating giving up my apartment and buying a smaller one or a cheaper one. That way I can get rid of most of my mortgage or be mortgage free.

Which means I can go travelling without a mortgage on top of my head.

I’d hate to let it go though. Because I’ve done stuff to it to make it feel like home. Decisions decisions.

Mr Boardie reckons don’t sell as too much transferring costs. At the moment I’m still okie. Not sure how I’ll be once I retired.

On a happier note, the sun is out. And it’s a Saturday here. I’m off to shower and go collect my headlight for camp next weekend.

Mr Wanderer still has my headlight but it’s stuck in Bendigo. So might not get it back in time. He’s due for his hernia operation on the Monday I come back from camp.

We caught up the other night for dinner. He shouted me. So I ended grabbing ice cream and coffee afterwards. It was nice to see him again. As for getting back together? I don’t think so. Case of same old same old.

Someone like Mr Leaky is who I want in my next relationship. He’s shown me how a relationship should be. We live apart but it works. We do everything together. We play word games online. We joined the same walking group. I joined before him. We even sync our calendars so even with our busy lives we make time for each other. We text every day. Before I went on holidays he took a day off work to be with me. He also took me to the airport.

Why not him? Because he’s not available. He’s at cross roads. I think he’s already made up his mind to stay but live seperate lives with his wife. I can understand that. I don’t judge. Relationships are hard. Especially when the kids are gone. And you’re trying to find your feet.

I’ve encouraged him to stay. Because I can see family is important to him. I’ve also warned him that if I find someone then what we have will end.

For now I’m happy. I know what I want and I won’t compromise until the right guy comes along.