I went and bought my latte to go sit at the beach. My usual bench was taken so went and sat down at the one next to it.

Tears flowed. I couldn’t stop them. I didn’t want looks from passers by or for anyone to ask. It would have just made it worse.

So I walked out to the pier found a bench and sat down. At least there I can escape. Only to find this. It’s like someone knew I needed help today. It’s particularly dark right now.

I was going to visit mum later but I can’t seem to pull myself together.