Well really 313am can’t sleep . Woke up with a realisation of what the hell am I doing ? 

Nearly 50 and not getting anywhere in life . Is it because I’m not willing to fight? Does that equate to being weak?

Or is it that I shirk at my dreams not pursuing them ? 

Or having no ambition ? Not wanting more? Not fighting for more?

Feels like I’m just going around in circles not achieving much .