It’s crazy. He left yesterday. We had not spoken for awhile. When I checked my phone I found his SMS to tell me he landed safe and sound.

I had no feelings in me. I was neither sad that he’s away or joyful that he’s safe. It’s weird. I was thinking why he texted me? It’s not like it’s required now that we are separated.

I used to fret when he goes away. I used to hassle him to ring home. I hate it when I receive his text meaning I’ve missed his calls.

I’ve lost it. I’ve lost that connection to him. I used to feel close, connected even in bad periods of our relationship. It’s gone now. None left. Zilch. I’m a bit emotional today. How did I lose it?

This song came to mind. By the Righteous Brothers.