I need to remind myself how far I’ve come. To feel proud of who I am. Even as I am typing this I’ve been known to be full of self doubts.
How can I not? When my parents think I am a dog yawning flies. It’s a Viet saying about a person who’s been “lucky” all their life.
Even now I still hear a remark here and there from someone that I know telling others how lucky I am.
I often wonder why they say that? To them it’s an innocent remark. To me it hurts.
When you tell someone that they are lucky it means you’ve disregarded all their achievements.
Luck has nothing to do with it. Just because they made it looked easy. It wasn’t.
It was damn hard.
May be I should look at it in another way. May be I was so good at what I do that I’ve fooled everyone into believing it’s pure luck.