It’s been 2 weeks. We’ve seen each other 4 times. The more I see him the more I want him.

Not only do we connect. We connect big time. Not only sexually but emotionally as well.

I can’t explain it. I can tell him everything. And he tells me his vulnerabilities too. And sex? It’s not just sex. It’s like he’s making love to me every time. There’s a difference.

It’s like those lovey dovey that you watch on TV? And you think no way? You know the ones where legs are entwined. They whisper sweet nothing in your ears and they keep on staring at you?

It’s real. I’ve experienced it with him. It’s wonderful like you’re floating on the clouds.

I have to pinch myself. It feels like I’m dreaming. May be I am? Something too good to be true may be is too good to be true?

Mr Wanderer is coming back late Monday. I’m dreading it. I’m dreading meeting up with him because no matter how hard I try I can’t let him go when I know he’s not right for me. I want more. I want what Mr AM is giving me.

As for Mr Boardie after telling him about it..he was like

I get that…..but it’s not a failure…….you have learnt about yourself…. And have lots of good memories. It all helps you get closer to a fabulous relationship. Or in my case further away from ever having one 🤣🤣