Lately I’ve been bombarded with stressors. * my aunty having breast cancer. I’m worried I might get it and my girls

*divorce / financial settlement not going through. Feels like my life is on hold

*tour guiding research /pharmacy CPDs not done

*budgeting sucks

*setting up the apartment not done

Like all I mope. Like a kid throwing a tantrum when things don’t go their way.

Only difference is after I mope I sit up and dissect the situation.

Is it going to kill me? No well may be the breast cancer

Is there anything I can do about it to make it better? Yes and No

Half of the stuff listed is out of my control. I am like a sitting duck. I just need to be patient and wait.

The other half is probably my fault for not allowing enough time. Ie my expectation was too high and thus I got disappointed.

As for breast cancer I just need to research on it. On the risk for relatives which I’ve done. It made me feel better. I can understand better now

And the budget? Well either I earn more or I cut back. That’s the gist of it.

Today:

I’m going to spoil myself. I’m going to sort out my apartment.

I’m going to paint my window frame. I’m also going to unpack.

The blinds lady will be coming to measure blinds for the bedroom.

Then Mr Walkies. I need cuddles and a walk badly.

Here is hoping the weather holds up.