I didn’t end up going to his place. Was crying all night again. I told him today I just want to give up on us.
He said he’ll ring me later to talk. As he’s painting his place.
This morning I looked for assurance from Mr Boardie.
“Seriously! You give a great bj. And damn sexy body. Awesome Nipples. And yes I love it when you ride me”
Last night Mr Walkies emailed me
“FFS you are the most incredible woman offering him wonderful food ….. YOUR PRECIOUS TIME …. lots of sex (any man would be thankful for)”
Then what’s wrong with me? Why doesn’t Mr Wanderer want sex with me?
Every other guy does? If given the chance?
I feel like I’m at a dead end road. I love sex and well not getting hot sex or as much as I want? I love long sessions that lasts. I love feeling frustrated begging to be F..
The T-shirt says forever wild and cool.
The beach this morning. Another 8km
People enjoying the warm weather. Going to be 29-30C today or roughly high 80s in Fahrenheit.
Dewy's Place 
I have this happen to me all the time. There are many who enjoy my body in photos, some who have in person. Yet, my spouse, since my return early in October and actually in the last year, hasn’t seen me naked or touched much of me at all. Sex, it doesn’t exist. He says he thinks about it, but he’s so busy and tired and I keep wondering why I’m so ugly and unwanted and V, we cannot let ourselves fall into the trap that sex is all there is. Friendship and care and kindness are the most important things I see in my spouse. I miss sex desperately, I daydream and self play, but I won’t walk away. You, you can..but if it tears you to bits to think of walking, embrace what you can. Do not waffle in tears and agony. Easy relationships are rare. You are rare, did you want only one man forever again? Marriage? Sending you a lot of virtual hugs in this frustrating time. You ARE lovely, both inside and out (or as out as you have shown us on WP! lol). Embrace you and friendship. xoxo
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Thanks Kris for a thoughtful reply. I know it’s not the end all. Just readjusting is hard. I can’t answer your question. I thought I could live with just one man. I don’t really want to explore others not really. I’ve had more sexual experiences than most others. That’s why it’s ripping me up as I know what it feels like to have great sex.
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Do you initiate? Or do you wait for him?
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