How do one break the cycle? How do one add spice? 

What happened to the girl that he married? What happened to the guy that was insistent that he only wanted that girl? The guy that went against his mum’s wishes to marry her?

I’m still that insecured girl that is not sure of his love for me. With all that’s happened are we still okie as a couple? Or he’s only here because of the kids? Or the familiarity? 

I do not know. Why would you stay with someone like me? Someone that continues to wander? 

On the surface we are okie. I’m scared to dwell deeper. The more deeper I go the more depress I get.

Let just say the worse scenario gets played out on repeat. 

I am dreading that one of these days he’d find someone worthy and packs his bags.